Getting scared of lifting....

[BobTheBuilder]

Basically I flopped on my OHP again, for the second work out. What really freaked me though, was I haven't even improved ONE rep since my last OHP day. Basically I did this. 4-3-2. (last OHP day) tonight it's exactly the same story, 4-3-2..and my form was really sh**ing on me too, slow bar speed, and hesitation... during some reps. Feels really bad especially as I've made pretty much constant progress up until now.

So anyway, I went on to deadlifts. I loaded the weight and as I was prepping my form for the lift, I get this horrible nauscaus feeling like I'd rather go vomit then do the set, argh. I had to run away as far as I could from the barbell and tell myself how small and tiny the weights look from a distance, before going back and doing the set perfectly. Pretty stupid right?? sigh.

Gosh I felt like a wuss today. The OHP really took a blow at my confidence on this occasion. however I'm increasingly finding that the same applies for squats too, all this last moment doubting whether or not I can do the reps/sets beforehand, even though I mentally know I probably can. It's really interfering with my ability of self belief, and that I can progress, etc etc but despite all this I'm still 100% motivated, wierd huh.

So what can I do to get past this crap?

[americanadian]

Get mad and push the fucking weights up!

This happens to me sometimes too, not the nausea, but when I fail at a lift early in the WO that I KNOW I shold be able to handle, the rest of the WO goes to shit. All I want to do is leave and pretend it didn't happen. Maybe kick a puppy too or trip a blind kid. I get pissed, cause a small scene, and then have to complete my WO, or the rest of the gym will think I'm an over-reacting pussy. Forever.

All I know is that you need to suck it up and move forward. Deloading is part of the total equation, and as long as you're better this month then you were last month, then that's progress.

[sumoboy]

Self doubt is poison! It can turn a great workout to a mediocre one. Remember what you learned about yourself and your body up to this moment, and laugh because the limits you set for yourself back then had to be broken to get to today. Break through!